The great thing about being a freelancer is their is ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel That is something I am very drawn to. Don't mesh with everyone? Don't sweat it, you will be onto the next thing before you know it.
This week I wrapped as the Costume Coordinator on a new film titled First Reformed. I am beyond grateful for the team that provided me with this opportunity. No one ever wants to be the first to give someone their first gig, I get it, it means that we don't have a track record. No reference point. This team gave me an opportunity to begin creating a track record within this position for myself.
The icing on top was when I met with accounting to close out the budget for the department and complimented the organization. I think that speaks to taking/being provided the next step when you are ready for it.
When it comes to the new beginning aspect, that is what always used to give me a great deal of anxiety. Not knowing what is next...but after living and working freelance for awhile now it has taught me to live in the moment and appreciate the journey.
I have been able to translate that to my personal life as well. As someone in their 20's a huge topic of conversation is always dating. Good, Bad and in between, it always seems to come up. I know so many people who are always just looking for a relationship. By targeting that one thing we limit ourselves to the other possibility. Perhaps this person we go on a date with will not be a good partner for us, but they could be a great friend, a great collaborator.
I know and come across many talented creators everyday. I listen to their stories and how their journey panned/is panning out and sometimes I get down on myself. Well for starters comparison is dangerous and also I can't change my journey so far, I can only change it moving forward. So I learn from those around me that I admire, tell myself that this is my journey, that is theres and keep plugging away on my own path. I believe we are fortunate to live in a world where there is room for Madonna, Gaga and Beyonce. Not just one.
Embrace and focus on your jouney. Be secure with you and where you are headed and applaud those around you, trust me, it will make you better in the long run.
This is where I am in my life. Remaining open, being okay with where I am right now, not comparing myself and my journey and seeing where new relationships can go.
Everything happens for a reason inlcuding the areas of work and life that we end up in.